Lay Pride

I might be one of them, but i sure can recognise another rotten apple when i see one. And what's worse than an elitist snob having graduated with a PhD in Smartassism?!
Knowledge is money
Knowledge is status and knowledge is that little voice in your head that tells you that you know more than the bloke standing across from you.
I has been widely amusing, the line about how if you think your very smart, your clearly not smart enough. And yet people who read that line, think they know better.
So what about all those A grade dooshbags, walking around, too clever to get the Einstein out of their hair? Their zero numbered spectacles placed gingerly at the bridge of their noses. Do they know that their own knowledge of their being knowledgeable makes them less of a know it all?
Im going to play dumb,
and laugh at you in my head.

Things i love

1: cheese cake

2: Rain

3: Joeanne

4: Books

5: The beach

6: Rock and roll

7: sleeping

8: Port wine

9: Fresh mornings

10: breakfast in bed

My party lines

it's Saturday night..time to PARTEY!
i hate that line. i hate people who say that as well. i hate people who are out every sat nite PARTEYing. i hate the PARTEYs.
now don't take me for someone who stands out side the line, looking in at all the fun.
i have joined in these soirees. i have laughed and tet-a-teted with the night celebrities.
I carry along a wad of lines to use while out partying. Things that get me a free drink or allow me to get introduced to the cute guy I'm checking out. Either way they are simply lines, fake and frilly. But all have underlying meanings, which i plan to reveal today int eh exclusive,

WHAT DOES SHE MEAN BY THAT BLOG POST

No1> "Wow! i love your shoes, where from?"
Meaning: I've scanned you completely and cant find any other part of you to compliment. Also I'd rather talk about something that sole full than attempt for something soulful.

No2> "Oh! yeah I'm on work duty.."
Meaning: I'm bored but I'd rather fake working than stand here talking to you

No3> "No thanks, I'm happy with my coke."
Meaning: i wouldn't take a drink from you, for fear that you might spike it. Also i want to stay sober and remember your face, so i can avoid you the next time

No4> "Hey, oh yeah, i haven't been out because i had other things to do"
Meaning: I'd rather stay at home reading a book about Russian communists, than come to a club and watch them instead dancing around poles, giggling at the lame jokes thrown out by desperate rich men.

No5> "Nah, still single"
Meaning: I haven't been able to find any one worth my wit

No6> "I'm concentrating on my self right now."
Meaning: I'd rather die an old hag than date you. I mean seriously! Do you think i would want to pick my next boy friend in a club!!!!???

No7> "Oh, man, you are so funny"
Meaning: i beg you to stop talking and just get my Pepsi refill

No8> "Oh we were just discussing the new book by Salman Rushdie...."
Response: "*awkward silence"
Here, switch to line No1
"Wow, i love your shoes,w here did you get them from?
Meaning: Do u know about anything aside from the latest fad diet? —
Oh no. you don't? — Well at least you have nice shoes!

this isn't sadness. This isn't lonliness either. This is some quantum of ethereal space, amidst which i am floating. No need for gravity, no NEED.

i have decided to spend new year's in my own company. Alone? Maybe, but not lonely.

What a tumultuous year has gone by, and i see that more rises and falls are to happen. i would like to start the year in calmness. No big bang for me. Simple quite...no dressing up, or dancing, or drinking. Simply be rested. The first day of the year should reflect the rest of it, and i would like mine to start with a quest for nirvana.
Lets see how my search continues, but for now, bonn anniversarie!

when life's a gamble

I'm not one for the tables. I can barely hold a set of cards right, let alone play a game decently. My failure at winning a simple game of DONKEY, led me to completely dislike all games of cards, and in the process, stood me against gambling quite strongly. Gambling i believe is firstly for people with money to throw around. I don't have that sort of money. I barely make ends meet and i don't plan on loosing my rent money on a game of Black Jack. Al this withstanding, recently a friend got me to come aboard one of those floating casinos, for a bit of lady luck langdi. I made a fuss, but at last accented. I have often enough been to casinos for my stories, and this one was no different. OK, so maybe I want being shown around like at all the other places, since i Left he TOI tag at home, but it was nice none the less. The upstairs open areas is one kept for dancing, with a live band and a free bar. It is also where gamblers come for a quick smoke before hitting the tables again. I sat sipping my second Pepsi, watching middle aged, and those on the wrong side of middle age, dancing to a number of bollywood numbers, while laughing and drinking. These were not crass people, they were well dress, mild speaking tourists, all down for a bit of masti.

Off to the gambling area, i promised to kept o the slot machines, but found them dreadfully boring and instead decided to watch my friends bet away their earning.

Things didn't go just as easy as that. With all that free booze the friends got to tipsy to even stand properly, and i found it left to me to continue the betting. With no idea of how to play any of the games, i started off with five card poker and then to black jack. Oddly enough, i was winning. Not willing to get like the rest, i stuck to coffee and Pepsi's and found it helped my game considerably. I was winning, and being wise while at it. By the end of the night, i had made Friends with most of the staff, an bunch of the customers, and even went home, (well since it wasn't my money, id have to say my friend went home, with twice ass much as what they came with)

A good experience none the less, i would still guarantee myself, that a personal visit to a gambling joint is way out of my interest. I plan to stick to wasting my money on food and movies.

Moral: go ahead gamble, just use someone else's money

chatter pox

ever said something you shouldn't? Spoke too soon? Spoke too stupid too soon? Happens to most of us, one time or the other. Problem is, it happens to me more than just often. It happens on a regular basis. For those who know me they have learned to ignore my slip ups or simply laugh at the goofy ones. And i remain safe. But then once in a while comes along a newbie. Someone who doesn't know or recognise my eccentricities as simple repercussions of having fallen on my head at a very young age. So i say "Hi, your pants look so gay." Only to be given a rotten look and a huff away.

But isn't always that simple. m not just saying things that would annoy people, i say things that hurt people, anger people or really break people's heart's. And i never realise, continuing to blab on. This time however it all caught up to me, and my stupid antic got me into a very hot soup. Still at the rim of the bowl right now, but by the looks of things, it might get better. If not better, it definitely wont get worse than what it already is. or could it?? Zwikes.

i have had enough of my racing tongue and it's maladies. I wish to sear it off and freeze it in a bottle of cleaning acid.

moral: Shut up, just please shut up

in times of loss, all we can think about is the pain. That searing feeling that burns away a bit of flesh as it peirces your heart. Drama with a capital D indeed, but we know we've all gone through some bout of ti or the other.
Well we all pick ourselves up, tie our belts a bit tighter, and walk on. A bit safer this time.
Im hurt, sore hearted, but like all other times, i'll repair. The worst part is that the ones i would really have loved to have longer, are the ones that leave faster.
im standing at the warf, and their boat has sailed, leaving me with the annoying sea gulls.